Plagued by a kind of emotional ague, an ache... I just want to not deal with being treated as some after thought.
what would that feel like?
what would it look like?
what would it sound like?
...what would the realisation that how I want it to look like is not what it is to them feel like? this feeling? this space?
one then argues, why ask to know someone's needs, if the end result is to not serve it? hmm... why bother hold to account?
the question then
just.
why?
